hellooo,
havent been blogging for quite sometime.
been too lazy to do anything.
basically just eat and sleep.
well, there's something bothering my mind.
how does it actually feel to lose ur loved one- say ur husband,
in a blink of an eye?
imagine this.
ur an old lady, say bout 70yrs old,
you just came back from an op, just about a week.
you are supposed to stay in the hospital
but you insist on going back home.
your husband, about 75 years old, on the other hand,
is alright, no problem with him.
maybe just the elderly-ppl-kind-of-sick,
like weak, cannot walk so much, other than that he's ok
so just about a week after you did an op,
your at home, he's taking care of you
so then he went out, to go to the polyclinic
to collect some medicines for himself,
and then the next thing you know,
you got a phone call from your daughter
saying that your husband fainted in the mrt.
he's been send to the hospital.
your daughter said he's alright,
he woke up in the ambulance, insisting to go home
but now he's in hospital and the doctor is examining him
the actual fact that you dont know is,
he's in icu, in the most critical state-nazak
everybody's wondering how he got into the nazak state
when he just merely fainted, maybe due to an empty stomach
and he was actually conscious when he was in the ambulance.
but once he arrived in the hospital, his condition changes.
he was rushed to the icu.
doctors even estimated his time left,about 24-48 hrs
your children, your families, you cousins
none of them told any of that to you
you wanted so much to visit your husband
but looking at your condition,
your children insist that you stay at home
after a few days of not seeing your husband,
your children came back with your husband
only thing is that, they came back with your husband's body.
how would you feel??
the last time you saw your husband
was when he went out to go to the polyclinic.
it was just a normal day to you, to him, to all of us.
but nobody realise that is was actually his last moments,
your very last time seeing him, talking to him, smiling to him.
and you never would have thought that that is the way of seeing the last of him.
life is very unpredictable.
you never know when is your time.
you wont know if you'll be leaving
with your loved ones around you
or that your just alone by yourself.
spend time with your loved ones
cheerish and treasure the moments you have with them
cause once they're gone,
you can never get those times and moments back, with them again.
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the first time i saw you, i thought you're my grandfather,
maybe bcause your his eldest son,
and that bcause you got most of his featured.
you even behave and talk like him,
well, according to my parents,
thats how he used to behave and talk.
the only not-good thing you have inherited from him is
his behaviour and temper
thus causing so much arrogance, anger, and hatred in the family.
something learnt here is never befriend with arrogance
bcause arrogance's bestfren is anger and hatred.
what is there with arrogance?
what do you get by being arrogance?
i know things have been hard on you,
sometimes somethings are just so difficult to accept.
but if only you had given a chance to her,
things would have been way different now.
and i wish i could turn back the time,
for you, for her and for all of us.
the past can never be undo.
so i will always pray for your family's well being.
oh ALLAH, if you want to take him,
pls dont let him suffer so much.
pls make it easy for him. amin.
time check:2am
its time for me to turn in already
yet im so hungry
but im really not in the mood to eat
thanks to the stupid ulcer.
i hate it so much!
its hurts badly!
any suggestion on how to get it cured the fastest way?
pls dont suggest bout putting salt or margrine or what so ever
cause im really scared bout the pain.
well, good night then.
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